Xelphe

Well.. If my heart wasn't already in a thousand pieces.. Then it is now.. The one girl that I loved... and still says she loves me back... Just officially broke me down.. I'm in tears and pain.. I don't know what to do.. It hurts too much.. She just came by and got some stuff of hers.. She was with this guy she's been hanging out with... I told her to come up to my apartment.. And I'd tell her why if she came up.. But she wanted me to come down stairs and give her everything.. AND IT WAS TORMENT! I was dying as walked out there and back... She broke me down.. I can't take this... The pain.. The hate... The self loathing... I can't take

I don't know why, but every time I start to draw something.. I tend to keep messing my self up. I can kinda get a few thing s done really well like the pants, shoes, shirts, and other types of clothing. Though if I try to actually put a person inside the clothing.. It sucks. I can kinda  do it, but when I'm sitting there drawing I find myself at a crossroads.. I sit there thinking.. "How should I draw them?" or "What does this persons body type?" Stuff like drawing someones arm with a slight muscular build or drawing them kinda big.. It's very hard for some reason. I guess it might have to do with me getting distracted by the kind of detail I